You'll never know how much it meant

The simplest of memories which I will cherish forever.

Three soul mates of different varieties in a room. Two bound to each other, and the same two bound to the other.

An unexpected visit. A visit necessary to solve a heart ache, a problem that was solved as soon as the three of us were together.

Sat in a simple front room, in a simple home. One of the happiest places I could be.

Conversation and red wine. Conversation turns to song. Red wine turns to more red wine.

An old guitar which has played the soundtrack to some of my lifetime highs.

A song which will be with me forever.

Two of us singing to the strumming of the talents of a man beyond anyone else I have ever known.

Laughing. Drinking. Getting the words wrong.

I was myself for the first time in a year.

I will remember this for the rest of my life.

Thank you.

These are the dreams...

Dreams - Dreaming is defined as the subjective experience of imaginary images, sounds/voices, thoughts or sensations during sleep. Dreams represent a world of imagery in which our darkest fears, deepest secrets, and most passionate fantasies break out from the unconscious mind and only at this time become present to our own consciousness.

I have always been a morning person, and I pull myself out of bed as soon as I open my eyes. There are 24 usable hours in everyday and I don’t like to waste them.

After what my unconscious mind projecting in to my deep sleep last night, I wished to not only stay in bed forever, but to my lost in my dream.

It was so real.

Not just that, it felt so right.

I felt so alive.

I had never felt happier.

I even remember thinking in my dream, this has to be heaven, I have never felt like this.
I felt it. In the core of me. Even as I slept I could feel that excitement in the pit of my stomach.

It was simple.

I came over to your house, as normal. It felt normal. It wasn’t your actual house, but in my dream it felt like I had been there a thousand times before. The door was open. I came in, went upstairs. As I reached the top of the stairs I headed to your bedroom. You surprised me. You appeared behind me out of the bathroom. You wore a white towel. You smiled. Walked toward me. And took me in your arms. You hugged me. A simple strong hug. And then whispered. I missed you. Then we kissed.

My mind in my conscious and unconscious worked overtime. I melted. The kiss ended. I woke up.

I woke up feeling indulged, the feeling of excitement still there in my stomach.

Then anger. Anger that it was over...but it will always be in my dreams.